It's true....Absecse makes the heart grow fonder!

So today I took Russ and his boss Scott to the airport to head offto Tennessee for a business meeting. I HATE, I repeat, I HATE when Russ leaves town for multiple days. One day and night is fine and even better when he is in the actual state, but when he leaves for more then that and in a whole other state....I am so non functional. I get so emotional when he leaves and just get super sad cause I miss him terribly. I not only get sad I get all crazy weird and my mind totally plays tricks on me. Tonight, I thought I was doing great, until I heard the dogs going crazy in the back yard so I looked out back and seen what I thought to be a shadow. So I count the three dogs and one goat and slam the door and make sure that I have Lily in with me. The I hear what I think/thought was a dog or something being hit on the road. I once again, count the dogs and goat and slam the door. I call my sister Chanda to come stay with me and she denies me. I refuse to go sleep in my room cause there is only two ways out of there if someone comes in and lots of ways to get out if I am in the living room. So here I sit in the living room with my laptop, water bottle, blanket, T.V., five lights on, cell phone in hand and dog on my lap. I need to get a hand gun! I would feel so much better! I could get Russ', but I have never shot his before so I don't feel all that safe with a gun I don't know how to use! Someone needs to be my roomie when the hubby is gone! I will start taking applications....NOW!

My Writing Inspiration!

So the past few months I have been hanging out a lot more with a life coach, a best friend, and an amazing cousin. I like to call her NICKI! This past couple weeks we have been doing more and more one on one time. It has been great and VERY inspirational for me! She not only has helped me get in touch with my crafty side, she has also given me advice and a shoulder when needed, but she has also helped me to start writing again....As you can see from my blog that I started a year ago and have not wrote on for....a few days ha ha....
I think this will be a form of therapy for me to hash out all that I have to say and what I am feeling.
Nicki and I had our rough go (like any relationship) and we had out our differences and had come to the agreement that we were both a lil' stubborn and sassy at times and no matter what, we didn't have to be friends, but we would always be family. That to me means a hell of a lot more then it would to some. I feel that if you can have family AND a friend you have the ultimate gift! Family is the number on gift that I have been given in my life and I would not trade that for the world. I like to say "If you have LOVE, FAMILY, AND FRIENDSHIP, you have the whole world!" That is something I firmly believe and I believe that I have that in Nicki!

So here I am going to give this "blog" and writing thing another chance! Thanks Nicki! I knew I could count on  you! :)

Six months and counting....

Six months now since we have been married and oh boy! That has been a tough six months! My last update was all good and fantastic, but the newness had not wore off yet lol. It is a struggle that is for sure! I think it is harder because we were so use to doing our own things that now when we should be doing stuff together. We have bee putting things out there for each other to work on and it lasts a week or so and then it fades away. I think the tough part is that we are both so hard headed that neither one of us wants to be the "push over" and just give in and make things easier. Don't get me wrong my husband is a great guy and I know that he loves me, I wish he would just show it a little more then he does. Being a single man for almost 30 years, got him set in his ways that is for sure. All in all he is a keeper and worth a lil' fight!

Married life

Married life is great, not too different then what we were living before. I will tell you one thing though, the whole name change for me has been SO hard! I have sat down a few times to write it out and write it in cursive to try and get all the letters together, and I feel like I am in Pre-K again trying to learn to write my name! I laugh everytime I hear AMANDA BARNES cause it sounds so funny! Yet the other part of me laughs cause I am so happy! I love it! We have been married about two months now and I still can't get use to the wife word either! Who would have thought that I would be a wife at 20, let alone to the BEST husband there is! He is a saint! He can put up with me! Ha ha But, I can also put up with him...What does that make me?!? I have been very lucky in the blessing of having him and his family in my life! :)